God is Big and I Am Small.

One of the most comforting things about God to dwell on is His greatness. Isaiah 46:9-10 says, “Remember the former things of old; for I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like me, declaring the end from the beginning and from ancient times things not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish all my purpose.” We serve a God Who is bigger than anything we could face in life. He has everything under control, and nothing surprises Him.

One of our current interns, Kelly, has been learning a lot about God’s greatness throughout her time with us, and I have asked her to share what she has learned. You can read Kelly’s full story of how God brought her to VOH here. Now, please enjoy as Kelly shares how she had come to trust in the big-ness of our great God:

I was recently asked to share something from what I have learned through my experience over the last 8 months as an intern at Vision of Hope.  When I thought about this, my mind began to swirl with so many different thoughts, and I quickly began to get a little overwhelmed. How in the world can I pick just one? God has been using this experience to work mightily in my life, and to pick only one truth that He has been teaching me I feel doesn’t really capture what is really going on in my heart, and what is really going on in this special place. 

As I was wrestling in my mind on what I should write, I was reminded that there is one truth that permeates all of truths He is teaching me, and even each person in this house. That is, that God is big, and I am small. This wonderful fact I can see played out every day in my life here, and some days I am comforted and relax in the knowledge of my God. Other days, I wrestle with this same truth, and battle against resting in this. 

On the days where I revel in God being who He is and I am believing that He is big, I wake up at peace, and excited about my day, asking Him to help me glorify Him in it. My interactions with people are joyful, and more loving as I see my relationships with them are gifts from this strong and gracious God. I go on shift, and when a struggling resident comes to me with a heartbreaking trial, I feel completely inadequate, but instantly remember that God is right by my side, and only a cry away from giving me wisdom from Him! I pray right then, and words come from my lips that I couldn’t have planned. Often, they are the same truths I that have been encouraged by the Lord recently myself, and I see this girl coming to me at this time as His hand reminding me how much He loves me and wants me to remember who He is. 

On the days where I battle with Him in believing that He is greater than me(often not even realizing it), I wake up wishing I had more sleep, and complaining in my heart how full my day is going to be. My interactions with people are more centered on how I can look to them, and my conversations are shockingly skilled at making myself look like ‘the greatest Christian that walked the face of the earth.’ When I am not around people, my thoughts go to worrying about the future, and how I can plan all that out. When I go on shift, when a resident comes to me, I rattle off some truths that I know in my own head should be helpful, all the while thinking that I am a wise counselor and I am sure they are amazed at my wisdom. My heart during these times is all over the place, and wandering so many places. At the end of the day, I am frustrated and discontent. 

When I look at how believing this truth or not believing this truth can affect so much, it makes me disgusted with my heart and I see how much I need Him to powerfully change me to believe Him! In Him is true freedom. Through my experience here, I get to see the contrast of believing God is who He says He is or not played out not only in my life, but in each persons life that I live with as well. I am so blessed to be reminded of this every day in what He is teaching me in my heart, and also in others around me.”

Thank you, Kelly, for sharing with us! If you or someone you know is interested in becoming an intern at Vision of Hope, please contact Jenn Breitwieser at jheikkinen@faithlafayette.org.

Bethany Dunn
Bethany heard about Vision of Hope while attending Word of Life Bible Institute in Florida. When she began praying about what God wanted her to do after graduating, He kept bringing Vision of Hope to her mind. Knowing that there was an internship available, Bethany applied, was accepted, and began her internship with VOH in July, 2012. Since then she has been amazed at the opportunities God has given her to learn more about His Word and how it applies to everyday life. Bethany now serves on staff at Vision of Hope.