Resident Reflection

Before I came to Vision of Hope my life was spiraling out of control, to a point where I didn’t even know what I wanted, I couldn’t distinguish a truth from a lie, I hurt people I loved, and as a result, caused myself a lot of hurt.

I wanted to be satisfied, so I crammed whatever I thought would satisfy me into the empty hole in my heart, but, like a Jack-in-a-box, it eventually sprung back up in my face.  Nothing was ever enough.  I grew up around the idea of God, but it just wasn’t for me.

After nearly screwing up my life I just wanted everything to stop.  I wanted peace.  I was crying for a change, for things to be different and for help! 

After coming to Vision of Hope I found God and accepted him as my Lord and Savior on September 22, 2009.  I’ve never been the same.  God is changing me.  That other girl is dead.  She was crucified with Christ. 

God’s changing my desires one at a time.  He’s teaching me to let go of myself and trust him alone.  It’s no easy task.  I wrestle with Him all the time.  I really am working on accepting that I am forgiven, loved, and free.  I have a long way to go, but I am growing more and more everyday.  My hope rests in knowing I am never alone, and Jesus will come back for me.

Jocelyn Wallace
Jocelyn was the executive director of the Vision of Hope residential treatment center ( on the campus of Faith Ministries until 2013. Her experience in the biblical counseling field goes back to 2002, and includes work in parachurch organizations and Faith Biblical Counseling Ministries.